Nothing can prepare you for a cancer diagnosis, whether it’s quick out of the blue or a long drawn out process, either way it’s a shock. For me it was a real long drawn out process, it was a year of not knowing, a year of tests. Every time we thought this is it, this is the one, this the test that will give us an answer, we would go to the haematologist oncologist for the results and nope it was inconclusive. You become complacent and think ok we are not going to get an answer and when you finally do that’s a shock within itself. From dozens upon dozens of blood tests, 3 Pet scans and 5 biopsies later and all we could narrow it down to was yes its Lymphoma but what type came down to a 50 / 50 shot between non-Hodgkin and T-Cell Rich. However that didn’t mean it wasn’t another type that could be masking as something else. The biggest issue we had was that I had no symptoms it was found by pure accident when I had a CT on my back that I kept hurting. Even after a year and progression of the disease I still had no symptoms to speak of. So came the day we had to start treatment which made it difficult not having a definitive answer so we went with treating the worst case scenario out of our 50 / 50 shot which happened to be the T-Cell rich. Even now to look at me you wouldn’t say I am a typical cancer patient, even though I am receiving active chemo treatment. I have lost my hair like most cancer patients but I am also doing most of the same things. Waiting a year for an answer is rough but so is doing chemo. Starting chemo is just as overwhelming as the diagnosis itself. I will say this to any body at the beginning, middle or end of there cancer journey, whether your going through it as the patient or watching someone go through it, be kind to yourselves it’s not easy. The more answers you are given about your disease the more questions you have. Cancer changes you physically, mentally and emotionally, at the end of the day you are left with one question, what next?